Senses

The first time I realized that I had no feeling was lying in the ER. I kept feeling something very cold touching my foot....my right foot. Finally I pulled back the sheet to see if it was an ice pack or cold rag....nope it was my left foot. My brain screamed oh shit that can't be good.  Imagine a line going all the way down your body separating your left from your right side. The right is normal. It moves,  feels and now does the job of the slacking left side.  My right arm haaaaates my left one. I can just tell. I have no feeling in the majority of my left side. None. Zilch. To all the people that tap and pinch me asking, can you feel this? No. I can't. From a soft gentle hand on my cheek, to a shoe on my foot. The small areas that do feel are all fucked up not knowing what to do. My oh so  sensetive side and under my arm  does the opposite. It says touch = pain. As if a red hot needle pokes my skin.  Pain, cold and stress makes the spasisity seize up my left side so tight its like my muscles are fighting turning to stone. I guess kinda like a  Bruce Banner (David Banner in the 70's 😉) not wanting to turn into the green guy. Can't get into water cooler than 98 degrees.  Gotta watch myself near fire too. I've burned myself more than once and had no idea. Fire bad.  It's like my left side has become an angry 3 year old refusing to do anything except stand stiff and say NO I WONT DO IT! The best I can do is coax it calm with candy.... It calms the beast a little.